Love is compliated for everyone in life. Without love there is no meaning to a true life. But why is finding a soul mate so hard? We are surronded by love, wiether thats love from our parents to the love of your dog. Most of the time we dont realize how much love we have. We make mistakes in love, sometimes we realize it, sometimes we dont. I will give you some of my love mistakes,
It was the seventh grade I was new to a school but i quickly met alot of friends. But one day when I was in my creative writting elective, I was writting about The diffrent types of drawing i think. There was always these eighth graders who were always loud who sat behind me, They were working on mid evil weapons and creatures. They were talking about Unicorns and there horns, and this boy named Derek made a comment about them that made my head turn around and talk to them for the first time.
After that we almost instantly became best friends. We had so much in common it was almost like we were the same person, we both liked warriors sports, colors morals, grades, dreams etc. Then a few months later I started to develop the biggest crush on him. Then to show my affection I poked him all the time and spent most of my time looking at him, and talking to him. I thought he was the most attractive boy on earth! It took him forever to realize I liked him. I was told by my friend he liked me back and I was the happiest girl in the world.
We were about to start dating until the day of county fair. I had the funniest time with him. Until we all went into a high school campus, and Dereks friend Josh got his friend William to hang out with him. Being foolish and inrogant, I liked William and forgot all about Derek. Oh course I never realized it until it was too late. Like It was the last dance of the year and I was all dressed up in a navy dress, and William was there and I was all puppy love to him. At the end of the dance Derek’s cousin asked me to dance with him. In my mind I wanted to but I lied and said “No I can’t my moms at the dance”. My mom was at the dance but I just made an excuse not to dance with him.
I didn’t realize Derek felt horrible that his best friend took away his girl away from him, He even sent me a text message saying “Do you even want to be with me, or are you chasing after william.” I sent him a text saying no. William and I ended up dating and I didn’t keep in contact with Derek. After we broke up I layed in bed every night thinking about Derek, thinking I was such a horrible person to be to so cruel to him, wishing I had one more chance to fix my mess I created. This went on for months on end.
Until I at a dance with my best friend Amber and I met this boy named Ian. I had Amber hook us up. It got my mind off of Derek for a few months. Ian and I began dating, and in the end we broke up due to long distance and me not wanting to make out with him every second we were together. Of course I hadn’t gotten over Ian, and when I did I was a differnt person almost. To this every, every day I still Think about if Ithought about my actions I would still be the happiest girl in the world, because of my mistakes I lost the boy who everyone said I would spend the rest of my life with. I still cry everynight about it and Its been months since I’ve seen Derek. He goes to highschool now and he had a girlfriend but they broke up because the girl was basicly cheating on Derek. I wish I had the courage to talk to him. If I did I would tell him how sorry I am for causing so much hurt to him. Even thought My friend told me he had already forgavin me.
So at then end of the day, Don’t treat love like it nothing. Think before you act because You might regret it later on. That is all
With love Gina nicole. Bye dears